Tuesday, April 17, 2012

When faith is all you have

There were times when I felt so low. Nothing seemed right. Those times I felt that there was no one I can find comfort with. I felt so drained, tired and unhappy. There were many worries, many problems and there was nothing I can do. In the deep recess of my heart I sought God. I found myself earnestly seeking Him. I want to be comforted by Him. I looked around for Him, suddenly, the urgency is overwhelming. I had to find Him. I sought Him out in everyone that I saw and in everything that I touched, until in the corner of the room, in a little table by the window- there I saw the Bible. My eyes were transfixed on that black hardbound book. That bible is a fixture in that little table, but that day, it seemed alive- as if beckoning me to pickit up. There was no hesitation, I went to it ,sat on a chair besides that little table. As I held the Bible , I did not open it at once. I brought it to my heart, embraced it tightly – clung to it as if my life depend on it. I held it until I felt warm all over, as if someone wrapped me in a warm blanket. I was comforted... I felt empowered. I opened the Bible randomly and it opened on Isaiah 41:10 “ So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and helpyou; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand”. All at once, my spirit was revived. I closed the book- with new resolve to face my problems to overcome the challenges that come with serving Him. I feel invigorated to face life again, to take on the responsibilities that I once felt to be overwhelming. At that time I realized that when faith is all I have... it(faith) is alone that matters. Our God the Almighty father is our only refuge- the source of our strength. Yes, I feel that the resurrected Christ is always there and that He patiently waits until we realized that we cannot do anything without him. Like us, He eagerly awaits us to come to Him with the faith that He alone can make matters right in our life. We can cling to Him, even in the darkest hour of our life and to ask for strength, to feel love and be loved. He is always there- like that Bible waiting for us, always ready to lift us from our sorrow, always ready to fill our spirit with the strength of His life giving words. When faith is all we have- do not fear- faith is all that matters... When faith is all we have...we have it all.